The call came at 5:43 this morning from Jerry's sister, Mare. It was one of those calls that you knew what the person on the other line was going to say and thought that maybe if you didn't answer the phone it wasn't true. However, the news came as a bit of a relief along with the sadness. Even though you love someone and can't bear the thought of life without them - this time it was more upsetting to imagine her enduring any more pain. It is a relief to know that her suffering is over. It is a relief to know she is at peace.
|Picture of Memaw and her husband - given to us by Jerry's cousin on her 90th birthday.|
|Memaw and Nate - the day he was born|
|Memaw with Danika a few days after we brought her home|
|Memaw with 10 of her Great Grandchildren|
|Memaw with Dean|
|Memaw with David|
I keep trying to end this post with a message to Memaw - even though I talked to her yesterday...but those words aren't coming or perhaps I just don't want to share them. Maybe it's that I'm not in the right mind frame to say them...to say goodbye. We are in the preparing to say goodbye stage of the process. Which I don't remember being this hectic before because I didn't have to think about flowers or babysitters or suits when I've lost loved ones in the past. Before, I was able to cry and be held - now I have to get things done first. I know that the time will come when it won't matter what I got done and what I didn't and then I will cry, again.
Thank you for your thoughts, well wishes and prayers for me, my husband and our family. We lost a very special person and will need to take time to heal. However, we are a pretty strong family because of her and we will get through it together.
Thank you, Memaw - for all that you gave me...